It’s been a while since my last post. A lot has happened.
We now have another member of the family – Iris Orlaith. She was born in May. She’s absolutely beautiful. Really likes a cry though 🙂 I feel a lot older starting with this little one. I seem to get tired a lot quicker. I think also though, when Sebastian was born he had that many hospital appointments/visits that we didn’t get time to think about how tired we were. This one has been a lot more relaxed and I feel pretty knackered.
Before finding out I was pregnant with this little one, we, unfortunately, lost a pregnancy. I found at my first scan that there was no heart beat. It’s a bit of a crappy thing to have to deal with and I think I have struggled a bit with it. It’s a bit of a taboo subject I’ve found. Not many people want to, or feel they can, talk about it. I wanted to talk to someone about it but found it hard to find someone who wanted to. I think there is also a certain expectation that you should just get on with things, that you don’t really have a right to feel upset. And people say some highly inappropriate/unhelpful things.
But I don’t want to dwell on this when there are happy times with Iris. But I know I’ll always remember when the other one was due and will do something small to recognise the date each year.
Moving on…..Sebastian is doing well at nursery. He’s still a little clumsy and my heart is in my mouth whenever I watch him try to run or climb things. He has days where he falls over quite a bit, which I think is affected by how tired he is. But he’s a beautiful boy. Full of love and cheekiness.
Grace is perfect at school. She loves going and is getting on really well. She has been chosen to take part in a Sefton Schools dance show, so I’m looking forward to going to see that in a couple of weeks. She is great with Sebastian and Iris. She’s great with all children really. There is the odd little flash of teenagerness creeping in every now and then – I know it’s way too early. But she’s a good girl with a big heart. She wants to be a doctor or a vet, so I need to start saving!! She’s also developed a new obsession with cleaning – just not her own room